I have chosen to get on my knees.

Ask for his forgiveness. To accept him into my life and open up my heart to him in hope that he can fill me with his love and lift me up and into his arms.

I cannot live a life empty without him. I need the Lord in my life. I must read, learn to live, love, and believe his ways and make sacrifices for him. On the 8th of October at 9:35 i gave up. I asked him for his forgiveness i asked for his help within my life and to open my heart up to him. To impress upon me the words of his mouth written within the bible.

I asked for this not in hopes to get back what was lost. But in hope i can attain the sense of peace, happiness and a safe feeling in which she has gotten. Its what i want!

It's what i need. Without it im nothing more then a lost sheep stumbling in a valley of darkness where a candle has been shining for more then eight years and i have yet to move toward and take heed of it and follow it.

Now i will take my walk. I will fall from the darkness i have been living and follow the light!